Trip to china is not something new to me, it is going back home.  Somehow, this one is bit differene, maybe is city of shanghai? or i changed a lot since last time, i couldnt tell.  I felt like i learned something.  I have sudden need of learning, or working.  I want to wake up 8 in the morning and start my day fresh. And most importantly, i really thanks what my parents been put up with me all these years.  I dont know is a sign of life or strike of something, I felt i missed most important part of my life, the part made who i am and been there with me up and down.   
maybe all of these are just talks and nothing happen, but at least it is a start

dont know why, recently, things just not going well with me.  seems like i am losing every battle now.  and the worst part, i just cant get my mind of them.  that just make everything turns to a nightmare. i hate this.

soon, i will get to start my company.  i get investors and such. things are going fast, i just hope i do my best.  i wont hate myself when i am fall.  I only hate myself let a chance go by.  I will do this,nothing else besides this. I am born for this moment, if I fall I willl die for this moment.

today is my birthday, just like any other day, nothing happening, but it is all good.  it lose the meaning of it anyway.  spend it by yourself is a pleasure, a pleasure that you just dont want to share, like woman or car or whatever that are important to you.  hahaha, life is allgood

another friday at home, kind boring, but after dinner,, it was raining.  nice,, it havent rain a while now. cool down the city, clean the air, and make me wonder.  how nice.  i drove up to the coffee house i always hang at.  friday night sit at a windows site of my favorite cafe and raining outside while listening jazz.  i am enjoy my life. for that moment,, nothing could worry me.  those problems just simply went away.  they will back, but when they are back, i will be ready.

well, second day back from europe.  almost get everything settle down now. i guess it is the time for me write something about europe.   let just say, i love it.   i want to move there. it gives me that feeling when i first get there.  so much like china,  or maybe america is just so much different from rest of the world.  but anyway, i just love europe.  Rome, Lyon, Paris, Milan are absoutly amazing.  kind late to talk about today, and i am kind lazy too. so later i will up some pics and stuff.

morning i pass the naturalization test,  i dont really get a kick off it, just feel weird, nothing more.  later on this afternoon, went back packing for europ.  and it was raining, it come out of no where, then disappear in no where.  it been going on still randomly.  then sit in my cafe, drink some coffee, enjoy some alone time in the rain.  pretty sweet.  kind wish i had wine. but nothing should be perfect right?? even i like to talk with people, but most time, i rather spend with myself.  i dont know why, sometime, you just had the rush that you are not part of this world.  just an observer.  and now the sun is out in the rain, a sun set in the raining.  it is so bright, more or less like the sun rise,energized, youth, and other good stuff you can think of.  however, it is the sun set now.  is it a new sun rise or just give out its last gaze at the people, then he is done with his job and enjoy his alone time.

I cant wait for my trip to france, It will be a blast.  hope i will see bunch interesting thing over there, and i am sure i will.  and i need dont forget to take back some kool stuff for love ones.

well, life is kind boring.  nothing really happen, just thought about a idea, but it might be too complex for business and too abstract.  but whatever, yesterday, i saw the movie precock, man it was depressing. make me feel like more shit.  oh well, too bad for me i guess

well, this week is a lot of up and down.  still personall problems, but i guess they will be over soon.  Am i really that rush into everything or anything?? wow i guess i am just that bad person

i am pretty down this week, dont know why.  i am sure i will get over it soon.  i guess just some personal issue.  sometime you just get think about it, but not too much or else it will back fire.  just like cooking.

i am getting a bmw 850 this summer, under the condition of me getting a job.  which shouldnt be that hard.....cant wait for europe.....cant wait

this week been pretty...."busy" mainly non school stuff.  formal, visa, book hotels, summer school, greek week, and other stuff that been bug me for quite long times.  anyway, i guess none of them can top off girl's problem right?  i am pretty lost in the problem.  who cares. what go to happen gonna happen

life is pretty random.  it never go what you plan for.  i guess you just have to get use to it.  called my friends in china today.  they said i changed not the same as them anymore.  they said i am not as "chinese" as them.  didnt matter how hard i argue with them, i know i am losed.  i am not 100% chinese anymore.  i dont know it is good thing or bad thing.  i am chinese and i always will be, and i proud to be chinese.  but what i can do in a different life style and enviroment??  did i even made the right choose to come us?? my mom ask me before we first come over.  i said yes, if i have the power to choose again,would i choose the same??  i dont know.  i dont want to know, cause i know i am weak. i dont want to face this. sometime life just put you in cathc-22. no matter what you do, you always lose.  ha, i guess i am use to be a loser now. 

i went to get my visa today and, they are so freakying slow, however, i exchange 50 bucks with 50 eurpo. so i made 10 bucks.  anyway want some eupo?? hhahhaha now i am poor as fuck. damn it

haha, school start again. i was looking forward to it until i see the homework i have to do, but whatever. life is finaly back to normal, it has been a while not to. I guess i am glad.

heheh, i had a great spring break.  it is really awesome that  i can spend a week at a half private beach with bunch good friends.  everyday is just chilled, everyone is so lay back. nothing could worry you.  it is pretty fun. and you get love go to club at panama city.  their clubs are great, but i still feel dirty whenever i go there. oh well, it is all kool. oh yeah those pics are the mexico beach and the house we stay in(it is like 2 meters from the beach which is awesome for lazy person like me)

man, this week is way too lazy and excited. get the europetrip nailed down, spring break is coming. and bunch visia craps need take care(hahaha road trip to somewhere). feel so worthless cause i didnt really done anything this week. well i guess i am pretty worthless anyway, so it didnt make any different.  suppose have a paper due friday, and i havent even start yet....i dont know why, just can't get on it.  maybe i am just that useless, hahaha, i guess i am pretty useless, since i get two broken legs now.  maybe i should get a wheel chair and roll around.  i know i am not making any sense, but what is the point of making sense?? maybe just maybe when people think you are making sense, you really didnt make sense?? it is like chicken and the egg thing.  or maybe i am just a dumbass??  i choose the second one

well, this week been busy, i get a lot of sleep need to catch up, so i didnt update for while.  i guess my life is back to normal again, kind boring.  however, we get the europe trip deal today,only 1k for total travel cost to places like air-fare and railroad.  probably the total cost is around 1400 or so.  it will be fun as hell,however,i might not get as drunk as i plan to, but i guess it will work out one way or another.