Trip to china is not something new to me, it is going back home.  Somehow, this one is bit differene, maybe is city of shanghai? or i changed a lot since last time, i couldnt tell.  I felt like i learned something.  I have sudden need of learning, or working.  I want to wake up 8 in the morning and start my day fresh. And most importantly, i really thanks what my parents been put up with me all these years.  I dont know is a sign of life or strike of something, I felt i missed most important part of my life, the part made who i am and been there with me up and down.   
maybe all of these are just talks and nothing happen, but at least it is a start